Some people are born with it but for me it is starting to develope as I grow alhamdulillah.
Born with Cerebral Palsy –
(for those of you who dont know what Cerebral Palsy is its a neurological condition and is caused by a problem in the part of the brain responsible of controlling muscles – in my case I was born very premature and had a lack of oxygen which resulted in having the most common form which is Spastic Diplegia which affects my legs).
Growing up I found it very hard to love myself and to accept that this is how Allah chose me to be..I was very self conscious about myself whenever we had guests I would just stay in my room until they left. School was a nightmare I got bullied alot and the weird looks didnt help either but college was good, people didnt really care about how I walked they were very friendly which was nice for a change and that really helped my confidence, I didnt care about what other people thought of me anymore, I began to talk more and didnt just shy away from people, made a good group of friends alhamdulillah.
I am now in my 20’s and alhamdulillah my confidence has improved alot over the years the weird stares no longer bother me – saying that I still do have bad days where I just wish I was “normal” wish I could wear stylish shoes, high heels like everyone else. *sigh*
Its hard but I try to stay positive I keep telling myself Allah loves me and I am here to please Allah not his creation -reciting the Qur’an has also helped me be more positive specially Surah ad Duha whenever I recite or listen to it I get a feeling which I really cant explain..a good happy feeling alhamdulillah.
With the negatives there are also positives – having Cerebral Palsy has made me more stronger, determainted and humble as a person.
I am no longer ashamed and I wouldnt have it any other way. Alhamdulillah for everything! 💖
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