Self Confidence

Some people are born with it but for me it is starting to develop as I grow alhamdulillah.
Born with Cerebral Palsy –
(for those of you who don’t know what Cerebral Palsy is it’s a neurological condition and is caused by a problem in the part of the brain responsible of controlling muscles – in my case I was born very premature and had a lack of oxygen which resulted in having the most common form which is Spastic Diplegia which affects my legs – the muscles/hamstrings are weak and very tight making it difficult for me to walk but alhamdulillah for having the strength to do so).

Growing up I found it very hard to love myself and to accept that this is how Allah chose me to be..I was very self conscious about myself whenever we had guests come round I would just stay in my room until they left to avoid their insensitive comments.

School was a nightmare I got bullied a lot and the weird looks from both the students and their parents 🙄 didn’t help either but college was good, people didn’t really care about how I walked they were very friendly which was nice for a change and that really helped my confidence, I didn’t care about what other people thought of me anymore, I began to talk more and didn’t just shy away from people, made a good group of friends alhamdulillah.

My confidence has improved a lot over the years the weird stares no longer bother me – saying that I still do have bad days where I just wish I was “normal” wish I could wear stylish shoes, high heels like everyone else. *sigh*

It’s hard but I try to stay positive I keep telling myself Allah loves me and I am here to please Allah not his creation -reciting the Qur’an has also helped me be more positive specially Surah ad Duha whenever I recite or listen to it I get a feeling which I really cant explain..a good happy feeling alhamdulillah.

With the negatives there are also positives – having Cerebral Palsy has made me more stronger, determined to prove those who doubt me wrong and humble as a person.

I am no longer ashamed and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Alhamdulillah for everything! 💖

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